This Lunar New Year feels different. Not louder. Not bigger. Just… fuller. I am here. Really here. No boarding pass in my pocket, no meeting scheduled for tomorrow morning. This year, I am staying. Feet tucked under a table with the family who loves me, with my child, laughter rising like steam at the reunion … Read more
I could not really explain if I felt overjoyed or panicked during the first trimester as I constantly felt… confused. Like I was standing at the edge of something important, but no one had handed me a map. Naturally, I looked online. I scrolled through Instagram, thinking I would find something useful. Perhaps a post … Read more
“No One Told Me This…During Trimester One” This is the space for the things no one quite prepares you for in the first trimester.Not because they are dramatic or disastrous, but because they are oddly specific, unexpectedly emotional, and hard to explain until you are living them at 2am with your phone lighting up your … Read more
Before pregnancy, I thought I was already pretty good at noticing my body. I knew when I was tired, hungry, or stressed. When I got pregnant for the first time, suddenly every sensation felt important enough to deserve its own internal meeting. Small twinges are noted. Weird cravings are investigated. Unfamiliar symptoms are immediately treated … Read more
One day, my sweet boy, I want you to know how deeply you were hoped for by your parents who love you. Before you were here, every month began the same way. We carried a little spark of hope together, but we tried to keep it small, protected. We told each other not to overthink, … Read more
